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Sometimes you get mixed days like the one I've been having today--I had some very encouraging words of support from the temple, operating as it can during this time of social distancing and limited temple activities. I also had a moment of reflection about jealousy as well--about the others from my cohort as having lives that easily fit the image of moderate success in life--people who find that their different aspects of life fall into place, people who don't have health problems, who aren't ill or sick, those whose passions were easy to decode for life decisions, generally. 

Some people just have it good, you know? Meanwhile I've been recovering from mental illnesses almost one in succession of the other, got fat from the medicine making me hungry, have a urinary problem that has cut nice long walks out of my daily programming. I'm glad that there's medication that I can actually take to help with my mental illness issues, but holy hell I'm just as ready to say goodbye to them. I need to go back to exploring the surroundings and getting really rooted into where I am physically as well as mentally. 

I need my normalcy back--sooner, preferably.